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So, yeah, a few days ago, my boyfriend came back, and he's on AIM more so we've been talking on AIM. Which is good, because I haven't talked to him in AGES. He says he got 5 rolls of film from NC, so I can't wait to see the pictures. :D I know the boy's been busy watching the soccer matches. I actually haven't seen the soccer matches yet because I've been driving. o_o Not too bad of an experience...I think I got really nervous and stressed enough that I wanted to cry, but didn't. The car has really soft power-steering that I know I'm not used to. >_>; Other than that, it wasn't bad... for my first time on the road, EVER. Got more practice tomorrow and Friday... The Fifa World Cup ends on Sunday, and I HOPE to watch the match then at least (I gotta see if my BF's opinions hold weight or if I should be trying to cheer for individual players instead XDD) which...actually is the day before our 5th Month Anniversary. And then, the last day of driving school is the 11th (woaaaah) so...yeah. Maybe I can do something with him on our anniversary (no more soccer to bring me down! LOL) or the Thursday before Video Games Live (which is going to be AMAZING AHHH.) Life is pretty good though. :) I think it's because I've got a handle on it now. And then I can go on vacation and get out of this state. w0000!! See Snow in Boston, see TB in RI, look at New York for the first time and just...soak it in. I'm going to shower, so... Yeah, that's it for now! -AY Smoked my cigarette · · · 9:27 PM CST __________________________
Have you ever felt the world upside down? How everything seems so different and new, yet familiar in the midst of it all? At this current moment, I can't help to think and to stare and watch this thing unfold in front of me. It's about a problem I've known about for awhile now, but now it's taken on a new light and dimension and it's crazy. It's shed so much information about these two people I know than I ever had in a long, long time. And it makes me really wonder, and yet happy, because in the end, I am worrying over something silly. Or at least, I think I was. I mean, my boyfriend loves me, and even though we might not communicate sometimes, when we meet up again, we make up for lost time. And then we get into stable communication again. Or whatever. I mean, I guess my fears COULD be realised because of the "what-if" situations that happen and all the factors, whatever, but at the same time, knowing my logic and knowing my boyfriend very well, there are good explanations for all these things too. I'm trying to avoid the topic of my boyfriend with one of the friends with "the problem" with the other friend. I'm just glad we're talking again. :) But, I think it was envy/jealousy about her, but now she's on her period, her emotions are open to see (she's a virgo -- she tends to hide what she truly feels inside, curled and wrapped in riddles and bacon. Really.) so I feel like I know her again. And not this force that could "potentially steal my bf because she's better than me" coz she's not. She's human. I just needed that reminder. And I was turned upside down in the process of it. I think, in the process of it all, we're all human and... I think, I can deeply feel my boyfriend really missing me. Like one of those things. Sometimes, maybe I don't realise it's really me, but him. I dunno. But he lives here, in my heart. And even if we weren't together, yes that would hurt, but if it was for his happiness and it was mutual, it was worth it. Or maybe it would've meant that we needed to mature a little more in experiences before we started doing things again. In any case, I love him. I would do anything for him. I would die to save him. I would make sure he was happy. And if him being with me didn't make him happy, I would go along with that. But, in the course the days, I realised, my boyfriend, while he has his "happy smiley face and jokes", underneath he hides his feelings that run so deep that they scare him sometimes. The ones that make him think about the universe or make him feel the lowest low, that he's not worth any of the praise he gets (over-approved appraisal I guess). It really makes my day when I see him happy and smiling. I remember when one day he was all normal, laughing, joking, and then the next day, he was extremely sullen, his eyes glazed over, and you could tell something was wrong. Yet, he was able to counter the look of that and say to people he was tired and sleepy. But I knew something was wrong -- no one looks at the slouch of his shoulders, the way his eyes are -- and I did eventually find out. He felt better afterwards, after reluctance. But since then, I can tell when he's tired, and when he's got something on his mind. That's just the virgo-ness in him though. I've dealt with so many virgos, I just can understand him. (Especially male virgos. But my boyfriend is a sagittarius, like me. :D) But it's nice to know when he can be himself when he doesn't have to make noise just because it's expected of him. He can be silent, and still, and just be. We just have extreme faith in each other and strong non-verbal communication. But even then, it's just one of those things I need to deal with, if I distance myself too much I start doubting if any of these things are real and true and whatever. I mean sure, if he's with me, we can sit, eat, talk, and that's all good, but I'm sure when he's with his friends he'd probably be wanting to do all these things (like sports and stuff). I know he treats me different than everyone and I do the same for him. He does the smiling thing because it's his mask, his mechanism, and his tendency to try and forget the feelings and just go with the flow (when in a group of guys or people) by just doing the next best thing, but when WE are alone, we are ourselves. And it's...amazing. And I miss being with him alone because I never get enough chances, so I guess that makes me envious of other people who can. But he thinks of me. At least, I know he does, to some extent. He's the first person I let know know me from the inside out. No one's known me like that -- not for a very, very long time. And he's told me things that he's never even said to his best friend. (Unless of course, his new roomie has turned into his new best friend but *shrug* who knows?) And he's said things to me that I don't think he'll intend to tell other people. God, I miss him so much. I don't know if he'll be home tomorrow, or he'll be driving/plane home tomorrow so he'll be home at a certain time or late at night or whatever. But maybe Sunday though. Everyone's gone asleep and I'm the only one up. And Mum wanted me to go shopping with her tomorrow after lunch. At least I have something of a schedule to call life. I can't wait to tell him about my days, just like I get to hear about his. I can't wait til my friend gets the problem better situated (if her blunt and honest reply gets to our other friend) and all this. I just... World upside down or not, I can still see. Maybe, this once I just needed to see from a different perspective to gain my balance. I'm glad. Really, really glad and grateful. Forever. -AY Smoked my cigarette · · · 2:50 AM CST __________________________
...It's times like these I'm glad of the little signs that pop up, keep me in check, and not only that, serve as reminders to keep me in balance. Yay! I was reading KamiKaze volume 2, and the main character made this quote saying "I had no idea believing in someone could be so powerful. If I can help someone who needs me...my existance has meaning." And reading that made me go, wow, that sounds so much like me, it's not even funny. I had some Nick: but its comforting to know that a friend of mine has felt the same fear and pain (thats you) Me: i wish i never feel this kind of pain Me: but then agian, when i felt like he was taking for granted one and and all this stuff... Me: i didn't realise at the time, that's just his way of coping. Me: that he just tries not to think of it until the time comes Me: and when he does, he at least approaches me about it and says what he feels Me: at least, only to me because I know he doesn't do that with everyone else Me: and maybe he did the same thing when he was away in North Carolina Nick: wow Me: And since that was like the 3rd day or so before he's going to leave... Nick: he may be afraid of what may happen, he may feel the same way as you do Me: ...Afraid of what happening? Nick: he may be afraid tha the relationship will end Nick: you're someone that he tells anything to, he may be afraid the he may not find that kind of person again I really miss him though. I hope I can get to see him sometime...or at least talk/call him if I can't see him this weekend. (Probably Sunday, since I'm doing something on Friday/tomorrow. Hehe.) It's hard sometimes, but you know, I can make it. If I make my opportunities, I can believe. I think stalker boy officially broke up with his girlfriend yesterday. That bastard. What right does he have BREAKING up with her just to call me even though he KNOWS I have a boyfriend? Honestly. What the flipping f-u-c-k. It's like an unwanted part of my life that's trying to get back at me. Like an ex or something. It's annoying. Grrr. I want to slap him and go "I USED TO LIKE YOU AND YOU LIKED ME BACK. I ADMITTED MY FEELINGS AND YOU DIDN'T DO ANYTHING TO ENACT ON THEM. WHAT THE FUCK. AND I GAVE YOU TIME AND OPPORTUNITIES FOR YOU TO GO UP TO ME BECAUSE I KNEW MY DOING ANYTHING DIDN'T WORK. GAH." And now, because I'm "gone" that my first love (AND stalker) tries to go back at me? I knew he would dump her during the summer -- he was just getting over me with her. And he's still not over me since he called. Gah. As long as he doesn't see me and doesn't get me alone somewhere (the odds of that are highly slim, though if it happened when I was out with my boyfriend, I'd have to shoot something) I'm all good. I just wish Daniel were here so I can see him and not think about missing him. Or at least, hear his tales and adventures and see how he's doing. :) Tomorrow's going to be cool. I can feel it. :D I hope he sincerely calls me tomorrow or Saturday. Hee. -AY Smoked my cigarette · · · 12:20 AM CST __________________________
...and other things. My friend Snow and I (that's not her real name, btw, though it is incredibly awesome) were talking about this mormon guy that we knew... And I honestly cannot believe he had a crush on me. He's one of those "upstanding" mormons too, saying that he wouldn't date until he's sixteen, definately devoted to his religion and so forth. Well, I knew he liked me. But see, the thing is that I was "raised" in a (roman) Catholic family, slowly fading into partial mysticism/my own brand of philosophy/and kinda...agnostic-ish? Stalker boy was "supposedly" Jehova's Witness and boyfriend right now? He's atheist, but very open-minded. (He joined the UFC...I think it's UFC or something, I joined it to. United...basically a church that accepts whatever faith you are and whatever you believe in.) I know my bf has said to me before how when we weren't dating but still friends and how I was talking about stalker guy, he felt... "jealous". And then when I told him, it'd be weird if mormon boy still liked me and he said he'd be jealous too. But I know that he probably wouldn't do...much. Though I hope he wasn't feeling jealous over our friend Josh or Nick. >_< That would be bad. Hopefully, that won't be the case. I'm too faithful and I love my boyfriend too much to even consider that. But...religion in my family...haha. Well, my family doesn't really go to church except for two days a year, and my aunts and other relatives they go to church constantly, youth groups and stuff and just no. I mean, my belief in God is way different than everyone's but they would still catagorize me as "Christian" haha. I'm more spritual than anything, I suppose. I told my boyfriend that -- how I'm not into religion much as more in touch with my spiritual side, and my boyfriend is one of those guys who really don't...not hate Christians or their beliefs but he's not one for conversion anytime soon. lool. But he respected me and it changed his mind a bit when I told him about the spiritual aspect. So I mean, who knows, maybe I can teach this boy more occult/new age/esp/psychic stuff, considering he's been interested and well, it's happened to me! XD But yeah. Insane. I miss my boyfriend a lot, especially since today he was feeling down and I couldn't contact him... *sigh* But he read some of my entries in another journal which he hasn't in awhile, and hopefully... he either cheered up or something. So hungry but tired. lol I did badly driving but I can't wait to do it again so I can fix my mistake! :3 -AY Smoked my cigarette · · · 12:07 AM CST __________________________
So... Today was pretty good (I suppose) up until I got home and then stalker boy called me. WTF. HE CALLED ME. THAT ASSHOLE, WHO DOES HE THINK HE IS? Honestly. I dunno. He doesn't even treat his girlfriend the same amount of respect she deserves. He only went out with her to "get over me" when he saw me with my boyfriend and realised 1) it wasn't a fling, 2) we were pretty serious and 3) good together. And apparently, I think he either dumped her or is thinking about it or something but...it's still like, what the fuck. I want him to go away. He had his chance at me, and now... Anyways. My stranger had an angsty attack again this morning. It made me sad. T_T I miss him. I hope he's ok... If he wants to call me, or if he plans on calling me, hopefully he will. Unless, of course, the post was due to the fact he decided to do a stupid move...but I hope not. I sincerely hope not. And I seriously hope my friend Becca doesn't think I have a problem at the moment with my bf or whatnot because that would SUCK ASS. I dunno. I just hope it doesn't come to that and it's just my tiredness and everything. Other than that, life has been good. :) Yay! -AY Smoked my cigarette · · · 8:22 PM CST __________________________
...since I touched this thing. It's amazing reading over some stuff in this thing. It really is. I haven't changed the layout in this thing in FOREVER. I think I could use this as another secret journal. XDD That would be amusing. Yes, a lot of things changed since I last wrote. One, I'm a lot more mature/smarter than I was before. Two, I'm actually over stalker boy. I got a boyfriend named Daniel, and I admitted my feelings to him sometime in late January. But, we didn't start dating (due to the fact that he was having problems and I didn't want him to make "me" a rebound after breaking up (mutually) with his last girlfriend) until February 10th. I actually went to his house on Valentine's Day, which was nice. :) So yep, my first boyfriend, and it's nearing 5 months. He got me a necklace while he was in Colombia (yay!) and it's very beautiful. Being with him has definately changed me. I read these entries about stalker boy and I know I was more naive then. Not to say my feelings weren't true, but it was more one-sided/stalker boy wasn't going to initiate back even though I told him I liked him back and all this junk. I'm really glad I am with him. I couldn't imagine a better boyfriend. Yes, sometimes I feel like I don't measure up to him (intelligence, popularity, social life) but I think it's just proved to me that while I might know who I "am" that I need to figure out what else about me I need to know. Hobbies and stuff instead of living in the dark or whatever. I'm letting one of my friends come over to my house on Thursday that I haven't talked to in ages. The thing is, she's wonderfuly smart, talented, pretty, and indepedent and gets along with a lot of people, can be opinionated, but can be very..guy-like I guess. But her looks make her extremely female. But she and my bf would be able to talk and get close (but not in a bad way -- they thought of each other like bickering brother and sister) and for this emotional moment I felt like she could have the power to take him away from me... one of my friends said that it's because I probably never imagined having a relationship this good last that long, you know? But I started distancing myself away from her because if I started getting extremely emotional I knew I would do something that I would regret that would be out of character for me, so I'm glad that I can hang out with her again. Done lots of hanging out, having people come over, and reading. Lots. And doing other things. Maybe I should get into gaming again, I kinda fell out. And my boyfriend is big on gaming. XDD Yeah, lots of other stuff happened in the last year and a half or so. Lots of new people, experiences, and classes and things like that. And other life-changing events. I'm sure whoever is reading this probably doesn't give a crap about my life, but... it makes me feel a little better since no one reads my pitas anymore. XDD!! -AY Smoked my cigarette · · · 11:02 PM CST __________________________
Happiness becomes me. Ahhh. How do I love it. [/pointless post] -AY Smoked my cigarette · · · 8:48 PM CST __________________________
I feel like shit. Tired shit. Hopefully, things will get better tomorrow. Way better. <33 -AY Smoked my cigarette · · · 7:34 PM CST __________________________
I don't particularly like it when someone is watching me do everything I do. I dunno, I feel sorta like some stalkee. lol But talking about stalkers now reminds me of a conversation me and my friend Michelle had. What if two stalkers, say like, one person is stalking a person and that person was stalking the stalker. And what if they met? It was funny coz my friend goes "I feel sorry for those two perverts" LOL! Ahh, that was a good convo. Stalkers remind me of him. But he's not really a stalker, thankfully, coz he doesn't...well. He's just not a stalker. At least, in the traditional sense. And I know him anyway. But yes, it's my baby cousin's birthday and I'm over at my cousin's house. And my dad is watching my cousin play Halo 2 on Xbox Live, and me, I'm on the computer right next to that small tv. >_> And he was reading my profile that I made for AIM (coz yeah). Very very unnerving. I don't like people trying to invade my privacy unless I let them or trust them enough. There's limits FOR A REASON. Ahh, I shouldn't rant here. lol I haven't posted pitas in awhile, but hmm. I just wonder... I really do need a new layout. One of these days. ONE OF THESE DAYS. -AY Smoked my cigarette · · · 11:52 PM CST __________________________
LJ went down. Haha. Today seems to need an extra dose of chocolate. Seriously. I mean, everything seems so dull/angsty, with a few happy moments here or there. *sigh* This pitas needs a new layout. lol Well, everything has been going fine. Just thinking of the future, of V-Day 2005, and the fact I have now a sketchbook and journals to fuel my creativeness. MWAH. -AY Smoked my cigarette · · · 12:40 AM CST __________________________
I have these relatives I don't know how to socialise with over and stuff, but yes. I haven't updated pitas in forever but ok. XDD MERRY CHRISTMAS!-AYSmoked my cigarette · · · 12:33 PM CST __________________________
Of course, in the midst of researching stuff on my country, I find some nice new music groups. <3 Right now I'm listening to my new fave, Any1. I like their sound. I can't believe these are demos...they are AMAZING. <333 SO I'm happy. -AY Smoked my cigarette · · · 1:22 AM CST __________________________
I haven't updated in awhile, have I? I dunno, I really need to change this layout. *sigh* Looks like Bush won. All I have to say is, people, do not bash me. People at school harassed me yesterday about it. Otherwise, I'm cool with the fact he's Pres. 'Nough said. Pitas seems nice right now. Doing a project on Slovenia, it's turning out cool, and it's my old man's bday XDD. Hehe. Wow, this was pointless, eh? XDD -AY Smoked my cigarette · · · 10:07 PM CST __________________________
I don't know what's more amusing: the fact that it's so silent in the house that the Presidental Debates are the only things heard, Kerry beating Bush's ass verbally, or the fact my dad is CLAPPING to what Kerry says. Hmm. As you can tell, I don't like Bush that much. I mean he's ok for smaller things, like Governor of Texas, but I mean...PRESIDENT?? If it weren't for 9/11, personally I think things now would be WAY different. WAY different. Kerry is definately on my vote. And for this er...pitas layout. David is good enough. <3 I just need to find something good to update it with...LOL -AY Smoked my cigarette · · · 9:34 PM CST __________________________
Another yet happy, but splashy birthday. :D >D HAPPY FIFTEENTH BIRTHDAY!!!Just to let you know. :D-AY Smoked my cigarette · · · 4:03 p.m. __________________________
I just got addicted to a new group called Muse. It's not really a "new" group, but for me it is. XDD And I'm loving it! Wow. Just totally my thing. (I'm acting weird and crazy and hyper and tired so don't mind me acting weird again. XDD) But yes. I know what I'm going to do for my new pitas layout. Mmm. Muse. Indeed. -AY Smoked my cigarette · · · 10:49 PM CST __________________________
Life is hectic, but it's thrilling and it's fun. :D Live like you've never lived before. But anyways, nothing much to say except this place really needs a new layout lool I love David, but maybe I might make an Exies layout...xDD Or something. Something new to fit my ever constant heavy traffic life. lol I've been so busy, and my homework is on top of my head, while I'm just...As that one lady on Who Wants To Be A Millionaire? said today "I'm high on life!" Hahaha. But I'm happy. Some people I'd like to meet and make friends with (I'll just have to utilise my erm...connections. Yeah! Connections!). Other than that, classes are cool, the teachers great. Nothing better than that! >DD I'm just bouncy today listening to music. I really need new music. But the groups I have are pretty good...hehe. What does anyone think of the name "Xanthia"? [Ex-zan-thee-ahh]. I'm thinking if I ever have a band, that's a good potential name. I don't know if I would name my child that but...lol Ok. "The Ashlan Hills" sound good too...xDD But anyway. Great title names: "Ghost of a Memory", "Bottle of Sunshine", "The Ashlan Hills"... That reminds me. I bought a book called "Head First: How to tap into your natural genius" (it's actually pretttty good AND not to mention I bought it on bargain at Barnes and Nobles!) and yeah. I should read some of that, if I get anything done [aka, homework, oh homework, i wish you were gone]...yeah. XDD So if you liked the name, you can feel free to IM me...if you want. No one has to, seeing as no one reads this thing anyway...XDD But life goes on! :D -AY Smoked my cigarette · · · 8:35 PM CST __________________________
I really need new layouts on both my pitas and LJ. lol I changed the Fanfiction Archive link. It's now a writing archive (I have my fics [ones that aren't on FF.net]) which also have the normal fics, original stories and poetry. So. Also added the livejournal in, which I use...alot. Mostly it's for writing but still. School is coming on the 11th so. x__x Sis is going apartment hunting on the 10th so I'll be out that day. lol We went to Target (my mom and I) and I had this urge to re-design my room. o_o;; Hmm. Maybe one day. One day. This post is really pointless, but screw it anyway. :D I'm outta it and yeah. -AY Smoked my cigarette · · · 12:27 AM CST __________________________
I won't be online much coz I'm going to out on a resort for the next two days. (At least, until friday.) And then on Saturday, I'm going to be leaving for Southern Cali so I won't be on much then either. *sigh* Because I'll be back sometime around the 22nd-28th-ish. Around that time. Sucks I know. Much love til then. Also, I gackted this off coz I love these two men so much *melts and slashgasms* and WATCH THEM ON TV IF YOU LIVE IN AMERICA DAMNIT. XDD <3 http://www.tv-now.com/stars/thewlis.html http://www.tv-now.com/stars/oldman.html *swooons* See ya til then! -AY Smoked my cigarette · · · 10:16 PM CST __________________________
Everything is so wonky...and I'm going to regret writing this post later. XDD I know coz I'm right now in the giggly-morning stage where at the point you're aware of everything but you aren't and when you are awake (and due to having no sleep yet mind you) and you just want to go and giggle and randomly go HAHAHAHAHA or something LMFAO Anyways, this weather was wonky. And my dad and mom kept cracking jokes about "What are you doing that hte lights are doing?" and then they go "Blinking" coz the lights have been flickering due to the little power outages and storms...lalalala BLINKING?? omfg? WTFF XDD And I'm hyper and giggly. God, I can't even spell HYPER correctly (but I did anyway HAHA) and I feel like slapping myself senseless. And I go and become Silly!Fangirl which is not NOT NOT good. All I want to do is go and run in the rain like I used to as a little kid but I'm too tired...I've been up for over 12 hours now WITHOUT sleep, I think I need to go...XDD Excuse my sanity. -AY Smoked my cigarette · · · 2:04 PM CST __________________________
This is what happens when you are bored as fuck and there's no real good fics to read or crap like that. SO here goes.
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Food cravings indubiously suck. balls. First, I was craving things from Chick-Fil-A and Pizzahut/Papa Johns Pizza. Today, I crave some kind of lemon-y rice plus flaky white fish. Weird. I know I'm going crazy, but that is fucking bizarre. But food is food. Enjoy what you get. haha. I'm going to eat lunch now. -AY Smoked my cigarette · · · 12:29 PM CST __________________________
I'm tired as fuck and there's a damn mosquito buzzing around. Not to mention I've killed 16 already due to the fact that I have one of those mosquito light thingys...it works actually. But still. UGH. Since my surveys I took earlier didn't process through LJ I'm posting them here. Enjoy. <3
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Who'd a thunk it? I've been using yahoo email for over five/six years now. And well, who'd a thought the next time I'd log in, I'd get instead of the 6mb account (due for me having the email EARLY) I'd get upgraded to a 100mb one FOR FREE??? Reminds me of when someone got up and donated money for me to have a paid account for two months. Holy crap. That's just...woah. O_O My eyes are out of my sockets. Other than that, nothing is new. I think they updated their email too, yet again...it's weird seeing this new design. *shudder* But, ya gotta accept new changes... This fic I'm reading is making me think, for once. About maturity and things like that. It's really a good fic, and canon-wise, pretty close. I'd like to see it happen in canon if possible, but ya never know what JKR is going to dish out on us. lol Anyways, here's the fic. Unforgivable Promises: http://www.fanfiction.net/read.php?storyid=1838969 Well, I'm going now. :) I have to get passport information in the morning. Ugh. It sucks. -AY Smoked my cigarette · · · 6:58 AM CST __________________________
For some weird reason, I feel like I haven't written anything in my private blog yet I haven't...I dunno. I mean, I've been writing in my LJ for a damn while...and I neglected my pitas...*sigh* POA tomorrow! YES! SCORE! I hope to go and watch it tomorrow...or some time in the next few days...GAH! SLASH! PRETTINESS! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!1 *Dances like Crazy* Summer sucks. Or at least, some things about summer. >_> The only things I like are: Unlimited sleeping time, unlimited comp time, no school work (unless it's summer homework), and no complicating RL people. lol Other than that, I dunno. *sigh* Can't wait for POA though! OMFG it's going to be great! Dan and RuRu and David and Alan and Timothy Spall (dood, his role in The Last Samurai KICKED ASSS!!) and Gary Oldman and hehehe...Shake that butt Gambon! LOL But of course...There's Emma Thompson (she's kickass. I still need to finish watching Love Actually...XDD) and there's Emma Watson and all sorts of other people...GOD it's going to be a blast! w00t! I shall wear my HP jacket for this! And put a scar on. LOL hehe. We shall see. I'm going to stock up on fics now. ;D Ja! -AY Smoked my cigarette · · · 10:02 PM CST __________________________
Dood. Whenever I see POA, I am going to melt, and squee, and just HOLY MOTHER FUCKING OMFG!!!! AHHHHHHHH!!! (I haven't had any sleep adn I'm reaching a point where I'm so tired I turn hyper and happy and giggly and ahhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH XDD) But yes. David Thewlis is SOOO slashy and just..woah. *melt* Dood, young boys and Thewlis should NOT mix because he acts WELL with them and it's SOOOO slashy ahhhhhhhh~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Ok I'm going to sleep now. -AY Smoked my cigarette · · · 11:54 AM CST __________________________
I know I haven't updated in a LOONG time but I spent all night last night working on three layouts and two icons. XDD They are LOVELY! I've been having a nice...er...thing on David Thewlis, the guy who plays Professor Lupin in HP3...woo. o_o I decided to go and look up some pics of him and I found out he was in this one movie called Total Eclipse...WOAH. Thewlis and DiCaprio, as GAY LOVERS, KISSING?!?!?! On SCREEN?!?! That made my day. And he's ever so lovely. :D Hehe... So yes, new layout. Isn't it something? The song was in my head. lol This song is ultimately my all time fave song from Nirvana. I don't know why. lol But it's GREAT! >DD EDIT - (:55) This shot was taken from David Thewlis Online (can't find the link right now) from one of his earlier movies Naked...wow. XDD I have never seen a man smoking sexier in my life...in a long time, that is. XDD Woo. I made an icon out of a later scene...and THAT is teh smex. It was from his movie Prime Suspect, and I gather, he was the ebil guy...with a knife-thingy. o_o Woah. I think I'm being weird...like on my Viggo-shipping days....XDD WOAH. *melts* Must be the moon and time of month...*sigh* ~AY Smoked my cigarette · · · 8:48 AM CST __________________________ | ||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||||